My Thoughts

03/29/08
07:24am

I couldn't sleep last night. I don't know if it's the bed, or the love making from my neighbors. I woke up around 3am and couldn't go back to sleep, my body was tired and didn't want to move, but my mind was racing with thoughts. I thought about work, photography, and money. I went to another Wal-Mart and looked at things I liked and didn't like. I saw a couple of good ideas that I'm taking to work with.

Now it's 7 something and my mind is still racing. I guess what woke me up was an annoying bark from a dog. I thought about calling the front desk and reporting but my body didn't want to get up.

06:58pm
Eating dinner at Back Yard Burgers, personally I think they are the best burger place around, I wish they were in Chicago. Jordan is eating his food very slow like always. I'm a little upset because they messed up my order twice. The first time they gave me #2 instead of a number one. I went up to the counter and told them they made an error, no biggy. My second time around they forgot to put cheese. I didn't say anything simply because I was too scared of what they would add. I use to work at McDonald's so I remember a few occasions of customers that were extra picky.

We went to Fort Massac and visited the giant Superman statue. We took a few pics and visited the Superman store, but Jordan had to use the bathroom so we went to Fort Massac. Jordan was scared when we had to go up the old ladders at the Forts. Even thought it was raining a little and cold we had a fun time.

It's sad because a lot of the land is flooded and many of the people like Chad's family depend on the land for their money. I was listening to the news this morning and they were saying this area was getting more rain.

03/30/08
07:18am
Again I woke up early without the sounds of my annoying alarm. This time I woke up thinking about Chad's parents. I wish I could help them, lol I wish I could bring my dad down here because he would love it. Working with plants and being outside...

DMV

A small journal entire about my wait at the DMV the other day. I was lucky that I didn’t have to wait too long.


8:46am
I find it funny how serving number jumps from A to D and back to A. Strange. I'm at the DMV waiting to renew my drivers license for my trip to Paducah with Jordan and because it expired a couple of days ago.

8:50am
Oh what the hell now it jumped to F and just a couple of minutes ago I got a glimpse of hope when they called for B151. I sleepy and bored, I start work at 12 and I have my review today.

8:53am
Okay they just called B152, that means I'm next, sort off.

8:57am
Yess they ope...

9:14am
I'm waiting to pay.

9:15am
Picture time...

9:18am
More waiting, but at least it's the last step.

Conway Song

I woke up crying late at night
when I was very young.
I had dreamed my father
had passed away and gone.

My world revolved around him
I couldnt lay there anymore.
So I made my way down the mirrored hall
and tapped upon his door.

And I said "Daddy, I'm so afraid
how will I go on with you gone that way?
Don't wanna cry anymore
so may I stay with you?"

And he said "That's my job,
that's what I do.
Everything I do is because of you,
To keep you safe with me.
That's my job you see."

Later we barely got along
this teenage boy and he.
Most of the fights it seems
were over different dreams,
we each held for me.

He wanted knowledge and learning.
I wanted to fly out west.
Said, "I could make it out there
if I just had the fare.
I got half, will you loan me the rest?"

And I said "Daddy, I'm so afraid,
there's no guarantee in the plans
I've made and if I should fail,
who will pay my way back home?"

And he said "That's my job
that's what I do.
Everything I do is because of you
to keep you safe with me.
That's my job you see."

Every person carves his spot
and fills the hole with light.
And I pray someday I might
light as bright as he.

Woke up early one bright fall day
to spread the tragic news.
After all my travel, I settled down
within a mile or two.

I make my living with words and rhyme
and all this tragedy
Should go into my head and out instead
as bits of poetry.

But I say "Daddy, I'm so afraid,
how will I go on with you gone this way?
How can I come up with a song to say
I love you?"

That's my job, That's what I do
Everything I do is because of you
to keep you safe with me.
That's my job you see.
Everything I do is because of you
to keep you safe with me.

Easter

Come join me I’m alone and bored. I’m on the kitchen table here staring that the computer monitor. A couple of minutes before that I was watching Hell Boy and thinking about my parents and how I miss them. It’s cold outside today around 30 or something like that. According to the News it’s been one of the coldest Easter’s for some time. There goes the egg hunt. I have never understood what’s the deal with a giant rabbit and looking for its eggs. The only time I remember my family every doing something for Easter was about when I was 9 or 10 and one of my family members got me a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle. I asked them why and they said it was for Easter, personally I think they found it or stolen.

The table is dirty, covered with a large bowl of popcorn, an empty gallon of milk, an 8 pack of Mexican soap, a couple of empty plates and my plastic cup of orange juice. I have to clean up but I have been to busy at work.

I guess I have to clean up. So talk to you all later.

Happy Birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

SICK

I had pieces of glasses cutting down my throat every time i swallowed. It hurt and i couldn't breath at night. My voice took a small vacation, well my nose went out for a run. I was sick, and i was scared.