Merry Christmas

9:36

I went out last night and when I got home I went straight to bed. Duude followed me around for a couple of minutes and also went to bed.

It's Christmas Day and I'm in front of the monitor looking at pictures and listening to music. Duude is on the bed snoring.

I miss my parents, Chad and my sister.

Thinking

I stopped using FB, or at least posting crap on there, but once in a while I will go in and check out things. I really want to write stuff and talk about my feeling and shit, but I don't think I can.

Worried

Hello to anyone that reads this. I know I haven't post anything, but yes like millions of others people I've been on FB and Twitter. I'm getting bored and a little annoyed by FB these couple of days, because to me it seems like it's changing into a myspace.

I guess I'm here tonight simply because I'm worried and I felt like talking to someone. I worry a lot about my nephew. I wish I could do something to help him, but I don't know what do to. I also have to understand that there's only a limit to what I can do with someone doesn't want help. Yes I'm scared.

Too early

I woke up too early today. Thinking about work, money, family, and just life in general. Thinking of ways to help others. Wish I had the money to do it.

Father's Day

I woke up today around 6:30 am. Truth be told the only reason I got up that early was because I had to pee. I hate it when I don't have to get up early in the morning, but my body is already waking me up. So I did my business and went back to sleep, but just as I was falling asleep I remembered my dad. I got up, quickly turned on Big Mac ran to the wash room to get my glasses came back into the room looked for my head phones, couldn't find them, ran back to the kitchen but still couldn't find them, decided to use another pair. I wanted to be the first one to call my dad. Used my Skype account and next thing I hear is my dad answering the phone.

"Hello?"

"Dad?"

"Yes."

"HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!! Wait, was I the first one to call you?"

"Yes, you were, thank you."

Decision

"A 29-year-old South Side woman was sentenced to eight years in prison today for leaving her children home alone on the night a fire killed two of her daughters."

People and we as humans are always making decision. Some are good, some we would change if we the results. The one thing for sure is that we cannot change them. If we new that the outcome would be bad, no body would make the wrong decision.

I really don't know what to thing about this woman that her kids died. When I first read about it I was angry at the lady for leaving the kids alone. I can imagine the kids waking up from the heat of the fire, scared and looking for their mommy. The small kids trying to escape not know what to do, but to hide somewhere in a corner, making it harder to firemen to find them. I get a picture of the kids.

But what if this mother is a hard working person. A woman with two jobs, not being able to afford a decent apartment and forced to live in a basement. What if this was her only day off in the last two months, and in the back of her head she never really wanted to go out. The news is not telling us that. The mother is sentences to 8 years in prison. I don't think the mother should have gone to prison for 8 years, did the judge think about her other kids now. I think what will the other kids do now, how their mother's decision to go out changed their lives. I'm sure if the mother new that something like this was going to happen she would have stayed home. She didn't kill anyone.

Milk

I had always been a picky eater. As a baby I didn't drink any of the baby powder milk or that other baby food junk. My mother and doctors didn't know what to feed me for a whole month, and they thought I wasn't going to make it. Out of desperation and warning from doctors my mother feed me regular cow milk at the age of four weeks. It worked and I lived.

Memory

As I sit here in  my room listening to the fan in background, and the running toilet. I remember when I younger and in school, kids telling the teacher what their parents did for a living. Some said their parents were also a teacher at another school, and other just said jobs that impressed me. I thought to myself, I wonder why my parents don't have cool jobs like that. I wanted to fit in and tell the class room what my parents did for a living. I waved my hand, trying to get it as high as I could. I made sure I had one leg folded on the chair, and still remaining on my set. Finally it was my turn..."my mom and dad makes fans." A couple of kids turn around and looked at me. Their face showed confusion and hate. The teacher looked at me for a second or two. 

"Fans?"

"Yeah"

"Do you mean fences?"

"No fans."

"Oh that's nice" She put on a fake smile and turned her attention to the other kids.

My mind comes back from a IM on ichat.

lol

dont have time to until i leave here

Hello

I have to confess, I've been Facing booking. I find it easier to use and add my thoughts/feeling at any moment. I used an app for my phone a couple times that made it easy for to blog, but it just wasn't the same. Last time I wrote something on my blog was talking about Big Mac. And now i'm trying to think of something to write about. 

Oh yeah I can tell you about the shrink at work. I reduced it by half with the help of my other co-workers. 

Okay I got bored now. I'm going to work on a images i've been working for a while now. It's killing me trying to make brick. 

BIG MAC

Well what can I say. I spent my money and finally got a Mac Pro. I worked half day today and went to my local Apple store and got myself Mac Pro. I need to go to Best Buy and buy myself and cam and some speakers. 

Death IS around me.

Death IS around me. I didn't post this but my grandmother passed away a couple of weeks ago. I loved her, and I had been planing to visit her this April.

I've been in meetings these couple of days. One of the questions they asked was "what is that motivates you?..." I didn't really have an answer at the moment, nobody had ever asked me. But I kept thinking, and asking myself what is it that makes push forward. Why is it that I want to be the best at everything I do. Money, hell yeah that's one of them. But why money and what do I want to do with that money? I'm a simple person so don't think I'm running out to the store and buying the newest thing around. I use to buy the newest of everything when I was younger. Cellphones, video games, DVDs, toys, heck anything that I liked. Now that I'm older I tend to ask myself "do I really need it". I'm even using coupons to try save every penny I have. Serious coupons does save you money at the end of every month.

Let someone ask me the same question, and this time I have an answer for them. My parents. Everything I've done is for my parents. I want to make them proud. I want them to smile when they think about me. I want them to sleep knowing they did a great job when I was younger. Yeah I was spoiled, but to a certain degree.

Okay sorry people I'm getting to personal here now, and I promised not to get to personal. But everything I do is for my parents.

Thank You...

Death

Is it me, or is there something happening around the world? Death is all around me, and it's sad. Just within a couple of days there have been three people at work that their relatives pasted away. Some were known and were just waiting for it to happen, others it came out of know where. I feel their pain and hurt when I see them. I want to take that pain away, but it's part of life.

Today I read about a brother that killed his brother with a butcher knife. The fight started over $2 they were planing to use for drugs. At times like these I do believe in good and evil . Evil was alive and loving it when a brother kills another family member.

I want this

Funny New Years Day Pics

I thought they were funny since everyone knows that I don't drink. But they were taken a few minutes after the witching hour.

Vacation

Well, the first three days of the 10 day vacation is coming to an end, and it's been great. This weekend I just rented movies, watched Dexter, and ate pizza. Oh by the way the new Pizza Hut Natural Rustica sucks! Saturday I woke up late and my super lazy day. I was suppose to clean up on Sunday, but freaking Dexter was too good to stop watching it. Tomorrow I'm going to clean up and I may go to Sears on Tuesday and buy a futon. I may put some before and after pictures, but I'm not to sure, kind off embarrassed on how messy the place looks.

VACATION

I'm on vacation for ten days. I don't know what to do.