Sunday, November 27, 2005

WAKE UP

Yessss, i did wake up on time but not on time to go to Starbucks. Okay people i gots to go to work and make the big money.

SLEEPLESS NIGHT

Okay people this is one of does sleepless night when I just think about the future and my life. Don’t worry people it’s nothing depressing or anything like that. I just keep getting ideas for pictures that I could work on, and my big move to Paducah. As the day gets closer and closer I’m getting more and more nervous, and by the way people I lied about the day that I’m getting there. I really don’t remember if I did post the date that I was moving over there or not, but I just don’t like good byes or anything like that. There are only a few people that know the real day that I’m moving, which are the store manager and co-manager, personal manager, and my direct manager. In fact they really don’t know the real date because I’m just telling them my last day at work. Lets see the only people that know what day I’m moving there is …my family. They will always be #1 in my life, because they have always been there for me, and I know they will always be there for me when I need them in the future.

The funny thing at work is that they are already looking for my replacement, scary I know. I went in to work today and saw the sign that said there was a job opening. I just hope they pick someone good. You know, in fact I will ask them on Monday if I can help them pick my replacement. I think it would be something cool to do.

I wonder if people will remember the things I did after I leave, what will they say about it and me, or will they just be happy that I left and talk shit behind my back. Oh well, let them say what they want to say; a dead person cannot hear the voices of the living. To many at work I will just be another associate that came and went, I will be the only 1723.

Shit look at the time, it’s late and I have to open. But I cannot go to sleep; my mind is racing with thoughts and images. Fuck!

TOP 10 COLDPLAY SONGS

1. Till Kingdom Comes
2. Fix You
3. The Scientist
4. Touble
5. Clocks
6. In My Place
7. A Message
9. Yellow
10. God Put a Smile Upon Your Face

Thursday, November 24, 2005

HAPPY THANKSGIVING PART 2

Okay this is what i wrote today, i don't fell like writing any more, and i know that if i don't post this stuff right now i won't post it at all. So here it is and enjoy.


10:28

Jordan


Lorenzo


Great I just woke up to the sounds of running feet going across the living room. Followed by the sound of my two nephews Lorenzo and Jordan laughing. I realize that it’s 10:15 and my sister Laura is already home getting Thanksgiving LUNCH ready. Shit I still have to get my crap ready and take a shower. I wanted to wake up at 9 and have all my food cooked by the time my family started to come over.


12:11



Okay I started cooking the rice, but I’m but sure I’m doing it right. This is the first time that I use an actual rice cooker, because before I would just boil the rice and add the vegetables later. So I hope things turn out okay. I still have to make the pasta, and of course it’s whole-wheat pasta. Lol I was talking to one of my friends yesterday and telling him that the only real animal is going to be the turkey. We eat a lot of veggie foods here. Okay I have to get back to the rice, and see if it’s cooking okay.

12:53



The rice cooked okay, which I’m happy about. My brother Johnny just called saying the he will be late, but that is nothing new from him, he is always running in Mexican time. Oh yeah it’s also freaking COLD outside today. According to CLTV it’s 17 degrees, making it the coldest Thanksgiving in Chicago in over 50 years. Man I’m so freaking hungry already.

13:11

All done. I finish with the pasta and the rice. I miss my mother, she is in Mexico.

13:41



What the hell I’m so freaking hungry and Johnny and Martin are not here yet. Johnny lives only 5 min away, so I don’t know why he is late. Martin is always late, plus he lives about an hour away. Oh god I’m so freaking hungry.

14:56



My sister Tona just got here, but I already started eating picking food here and there. But I’m still hungry. We are about to eat our Thanksgiving lunch almost two hours late. Okay lunchtime so I will talk to you guys later. And I hope you guys like the pictures that my brother and I have been taking. Oh and the only reason that I’m typing this right now is because my family is praying and I really don’t believe in god. They all know that I don’t believe in god, so it’s normal of me to step back and let them pray. OH LUNCH TIME.

15:45





Oh man that was some good food. I ate too much food. But know that I ate I’m getting sleep and getting kinda grumpy. I think i will take a small cat nap before i go to the movie with my nephews. But i'm getting bored already.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving this year. For the first time i have something to be really thankful for. I will take a lot of pics today of my family and all that crap that happens around me. Like before with my trip to Paducah i will keep a journal of the day. This will also be the first time that yall will get to see part of my family. I really don't like talking about them on here, but today will be a special day. If i find the charger for my camcorder i will also try to record some vids. TCLUC

Sunday, November 20, 2005

CRAP I WROTE AT WORK

11/20/05

14:17

Stupid questions, I hate being asked stupid questions. Okay this is what has been going on, for the last couple of days I have been growing my facial hair and just a couple of days ago I trimmed it into a somewhat of a gold tee. And so today I was walking back from my lunch when someone stopped me and asked me what I’m doing. Of course it’s another associate that works here, so he knows me. So I stop with a facial expression on my face letting me know that is a stupid question. So I asked him what he’s talking about and he asks me if I’m growing a beard. I tell him no, and I keep on walking to the time clock. But motherfucker keeps on following me with a lot more questions.

HIM: So what are you growing a gold tee?

“No mother fucker I just shaved it off this morning, what does it look like,”

ME: Nope.

HIM: Oh so you, you just growing hair?

ME. Well I hope it’s hair, if not I’m in trouble right.

HIM: So what’s going on, why are you growing it

ME: It’s called puberty.

HIM: Oh…so you just hit puberty that’s good.

At this point I just walk always before I say something else to him that would get me in trouble.

Fuck I hate stupid questions. Another stupid question is when I’m still at work and people ask me, “Oh are you still here.” No motherfucker I’m just a walking, talking, moving picture of myself.

16:56

I’m on break now, and I’m just felt like writing simply because I’m a little worried. No, wait I have to tell you the truth, I’m very worried. Some times I just wish I could be like superman and I could help everyone I love. My mind is racing with thoughts of what and how I would help someone. But I’m kinda happy that I’m at work right now and it’s super fucking busy that it keeps my mind of things.

I already told my store manager and the co-manager that I was moving to another store in Paducah. Lol it almost felt like I was telling my parents that I was moving. One of the co-managers was laughing because of my tattoo, ( for yall that don’t know about my tattoo look under the first couple of blog entries have a few pics ). She told me that they are going to cut my arm off and hang me from a tree. I also laughed a little and told her that I knew that because it’s a very Christian area.

Oh man I’m trying to remember what I was going to write I forgot because someone just called me Sergio (www.spergio.blogspot.com), Go check it out. Now come on people I’m not fat, and Sergio doesn’t even work here. Fuck that shit annoys the hell out of me. I would understand if we looked like each other, but we don’t.

Well I guess I have to go back now and write some more when I get back home. I’m getting bored now, and there are people asking me questions on my break. “Fuck people I’m on my break. LEAVE me alone!”

Friday, November 18, 2005

JOURNAL

11/15/05
14:36







Well this sucks I’m stuck in the hotel room without any freaking Internet and there are tornado alarms going off. With warnings on the TV telling people to seek shelter, okay people I do have to confess this is scary. I picked this place because it looked cool and I thought it would be better than the other place I was stayed at last time. It’s raining and I’m so hungry. But later this evening I have to go visit my hope to soon be my future store manager.

Man it’s so boring people I have to walk around this place and check it out, before I go crazy from boredom.

21:26

Wow what a day. So I called for a taxi to take me to see my soon to be future store manager and it turned that the taxi driver took me to the wrong Wal-Mart. I was lost and surround by county people that smelled a city boy, because as I waited outside people were staring at me as if they had never seen a Mexican. Lol oh wait maybe that’s what it was I was the only Mexican around. But good thing there was an Olive Garden right in front of the store.

Oh yeah check this out. Since the storm passed through here I have no signal on my cell phone, and I wanted to call %#*(%&*#)&@ and tell her about my trip. Man and to think that I’m planning to live here. I ready know that I’m going to miss Chicago, man and I have only been here for one night.

The store that I visited was soooo slow. NOTHING compare to Bedford Park. But the good thing is that I spoke with the store manager and I found out that they in fact will need support managers coming up this January around the time that I want to move over to Paducah.

11/16/05
8:51

Yeah I have phone service now. So this is the view from my room, I guess it’s the only good thing about the room that I have. Man, I’m so hungry again. I have to call Connie today. Connie is the art director for the "O" gallery and she as a studio apartment for rent that comes with furniture.



Oh so let me tell you guys about what the store manager said because last night I was too sleepy to write more stuff. Well my first impression of him was that he is a very down to earth person. When I went into his office I did most of the speaking, and we started talking about photography. I told him about all the people that I know in the company and how long I have been working. I also told him a small history about my time in the company and the things that I know how to do. I asked him what the store did when the storm hit, and he told me that it was the second code black they had to call out since the store opened. Like I said last nights they will need support manager in January because a couple of support managers will be entering the assistant manager program. But here is the thing; I would have to come back down here for the interview. Oh yeah and another thing there are some Condos a couple of blocks from the hotel that are around $450. WOW.

So as I was saying I have to call and visit the studio apartment today. And I’m also going to walk around down town a little to check it out. From the pictures that I have seen online the studio looks small but it comes with furniture. Lol man this place is nothing like Chicago.

Oh another thing that I almost forgot, I may turn in some of my photos to a gallery that one of my friends owns. Just wanted to let you guys know that just incase things turn out okay. All right people I have to go now and get ready. On my next entry I will just post pictures.

12:49

Yeah I know that I said that I was going to post more pictures on this entry, but I’m bored and this sucks. I have no TV now, I went down stair to the lobby and to the gift shop or to what they call a gift shop, and I bought myself a book, the history of Paducah, which I kinda regret now. But in about an hour I have to go visit Connie and I hope that it will take close to an hour. Connie is in charge of the “O” gallery. I think I will go out to the movies and watch something good.

15:10



So I just came back from visiting Connie at the studio apartment. Man it’s super small. It’s almost the same size as my hotel room, there was something about it that I didn’t like but at the same time I did like. Maybe it was the fact that I saw where I would be living on my own away from all my friends and family. I like it because it’s small and simple. I’m a simple kinda of a person, Lol my TV in my room is bigger then the TV she has in the studio, and it’s better. There was something about her body language that raised my eyebrow a little when I asked her about the rate.

I also really don’t understand her art. POST IMAGE OF THE STUDIO. But I guess I will read some, I’m bored. I’m reading High Fidelity, which is an okay book, but I’m taking my time with it.

23:51

Oh man how I wish I could stay here in Paducah already. Yeah, I like it here. I wish I could tell you guys a lot more, but right now is not the time. It’s so peaceful here and nothing like Chicago. I know that I will be able to work on my photography and just get away from everything. Right now in Chicago I have to school, a place where I enter and I’m faced with hate, the place is called work. Don’t get me wrong people I like some of the people that work there and other could die for all I care. I just need to…let my ideas and feeling come out in paper. Oh yeah before I go to sleep I know when my last day in Chicago will be.

11/17/05
01:33

I cannot go to sleep people I keep thinking about why things happen the way they do. I know and I believe that we do and things and things happen to us for a reason in life. I don’t think Paducah is ready for my art, this is going to be fun and I hope I get people talking. Yeah I like the attention. Shit people it’s late and I have to go to sleep. I have to do some stuff early in the morning before I go back to Chicago. I almost feel sad because in a way it will be my last Thanks Giving and Christmas in Chicago. 2006 will bring in a new chapter into my life.

08:18

Well I did wake up on time, and I’m not as sleepy as I thought I was going to feel. Today is my last day here in Paducah and I already kinda miss it. It’s so clam and peaceful here. Well I have to get my shit ready and get something to eat. Yesterday I got lunch from the hotels…well I think it was a restaurant, but anyways I ordered a grill chicken and it was good. LOL hey Connie (from accounting) you would love this place, they gave me extra pickles without even asking. I think I will go back down and order the same thing for breakfast, Oh you know what sucks, I have to check out by 12pm and my flight doesn’t leave until 4:55.

16:18




So now I’m in the airport and I’m just waiting for my flight. My trip to Paducah has ended, and thanks to a friend I know I found out about some apartments that are around here for $250. But the bad thing is that there is a two-month waiting period in order for me to get an apartment. If I have to come back to Paducah in December for the interview for the support position then I will maximize the opportunity and apply for the apartments. Okay I know you guys are asking why it’s so cheap, and it’s only because it’s the so-called poor area in Paducah. Shit for $250 and in a good area, I’m going to take it.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

HOME

I'm home people, but i'm too sleepy and tired to write anything today. But don't worry i did keep a journal and i post it later. But just let me say i'm 100% sure that i'm moving to Paducah.

Monday, November 14, 2005

PADUCAH TIME

So i'm making another trip to Paducah. My flight leaves at 6:55am and i hope to get there by 10:55am. Like before i will write a mini journal of my trip and take pictures with my phone. I'm too tired to write more tonight, and i only ran for one mile in 9min and 14 seconds. Oh man i'm not even packed with all my crap and i have to catch the train at 3:55am. Lol i hope that i have internet access in this hotel. If not talk to you people later.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

19:23

Wow new record! 2 miles in 19 min and 23 seconds. My goal is to run 3 miles in 20 min. Lol don't worry people i'm trying to eat better and i'm also taking some multivitamins.

ME

So i was at work today on my lunch when i started talking with Christina (she works in accounting), and we started talking about my blog. I don't remember what made us start talking about it but we just were. But her point was to tell me that my blog was getting boring. I told her that i already knew that, and it was because i was not getting too personal here. So i kinda changed my mind and i do believe that i will start to write more crap on here. Plus she is not the first person to tell me that it was getting boring.

Friday, November 11, 2005

OLD ENTRY

I wrote this entry about three weeks ago, and i just found it while I was cleaning my room. Also note that i wrote this while i was in class. I write in class when i get bored and always tell myself that i'm going to enter it in my blog but i always forget. So here it is:

9:14am
So I'm in class right now and I'm super sleepy! I went to sleep around 12am and woke up at 5am. I have only been sleeping 4 to 5 hours a day. I don't think it's healthy, and winter is coming i don't want to get sick. So i will try to sleep more and eat better. FUCK i'm still freaking sleepy

9:55am
I went to the bathroom but i really didn't need to go i just wanted to get out of the class. I also checked my voice mail.

10:01am
LOL i'm noticing that i'm not the only leaving the room. I guess i'm not the only one that is sleepy today.

10:14am
Okay i'm super sleepy but you will never see me sleep in class. I hate it when students clearly fall sleep.

10:21am
Great I think I fell alseep. I find it kinda of funny that i did...

10:31am
GOD PLEASE i need some Redbull, or Starbucks!!!!

10:55am
Man, I fell...

11:14
Lol

ALL DONE



WOW, what a great book. I have not read a book like this in such a long time. I'm thinking about buying everyone a copy for Christmas. I know a couple of people that could use it. Thank You HK.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

FAST FOOD


Okay people lets say we order and # 1 from McDonalds.

Big Mac
Calories- 560
Calories from Fat- 270

Large Fries
Calories-520
Calories from Fat-220

Large Coke
Calories- 310

Total Calories-1390

Now the Daily Percent Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet. ARE WE HUNGRY, lol because i am.

Monday, November 07, 2005

DREAMS

I fell asleep in front of computer and woke up to a crazy dream. Has anyone ever had a dream that seems so real that when you wake up you still feel it. "It" is the things that you keep in the back of your head, and once in a blue moon it comes out from the shadows and says hello. "It" could also be what you fear the most, the things that bring you into tears, the voice that tells you what is right or wrong and keeps in the right direction in life. I don't like dreams, i don't like thinking about the past.

I looked for my wallet and i take out a note that i have saved and i read it. Thank you.

I may tell you people my dream another day, but right now i just felt like talking with someone.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

A MILLION LITTLE PIECES


I started reading another book a couple of days ago and it's really good. Heather was the first to tell me about it, i remembering hearing about it before, and then a couple of weeks ago i seen the author on Oprah. By that time i was already looking for the book and just about every book store that i went to here in Chicago it was sold out. So sometime last week i went into another book store and they were still taking it out of the box when i asked for one. EVERYONE SHOULD READ THIS BOOK!

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

LUCAS


People meet my new brother. Lucas D.O.B 09/5/05

MARIJUANA


Lets all move to Denver!!! The state of Denver resently passed an ordinances allowing people over 21 to carry an ounce of marijuana. That makes me laugh a little and mad at the same time. Check this out you can not sell it, you can only carry it, lol. But come on people i'm sure there are a lot more important things that our law makers should be voting on, for example the WAR, or GUN CONTROL, and TAXES. I'm not saying that marijuana is bad because from what i heard it's GOOOOOOD. Plus marijuana does help people that use it for medical reasons.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

DIA DE LOS MUERTOS


Today is Dia De Los Muertos, Day of the Dead. I don't have time to write more this morning, or explain what it is, but there is nothing evil about it. It's basically the celebration of dead ancestors. If you are still interested in the subject please look it up online.

Happy Halloween 2

What a day at work it was. For the first time in a very long time it was so slow that i was asking associates if they wanted to go home. There were a couple of associates that came in dressed up, but nothing that made me say wow. Oh yeah i did see two guys that were dressed up as Mario and Luigi from the Nintendo games that was kinda funny. I almost forgot there were sooooo many teenagers trying to buy paint ball guns, but we didn't have any left lol.